suis-moi en bas
en bas
en bas
permettre aux chaînes de rentrer dans ta peau
suis-moi dans l'obscurité
l'obscurité
l'obscurité
donne-moi ta main
suis-moi à travers les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes sont le sumac grimpant
boire mon poison,
mourir avec moi
suis-moi
suis-moi
suis-moi en bas
the devil's horns are digging into my flesh and they never
said it would hurt like this.
I was raised to be a martyr--but they never told me the meaning
of that word.
I was lucifer's child and that title was branded upon me with
spiteful eyes and cups of blood broken pieces of bodies I was
less.
corrupted.
flawed.
fire is what burns in hell and any fire that burnt in me must have
been brought along when I was taken
from there and I
know they were just afraid and that is why they suffocated me.
the closest I could get to fading without actually
disappearing
was becoming water but good girls are not water they are air not seen and not
the day is coming to an end by Phantomtigers, literature
Literature
the day is coming to an end
don’t say it.
the embers only ignite
if you
breathe
on the
ashes.
don’t breathe.
rather,
breathe;
but not
with me.
the moon has
sunk beneath
your cheekbones.
we do not need
to try
again.
the sun will rise. someone
will be your first thought
and I will be your
exhale.
that is alright.
don’t say it.
once lit
it is sure
to die.
quickly burn,
and end
our lives.
it will sizzle,
it will rage,
against the dying
of its day.
it will burn
our hands that we
so tightly
clasp onto
the untamable.
it will burn our homes.
family.
friends.
natural penance for
taking pride in what
is sure
to
vanish.
don’t say it.
One day
you will realize that I confined you
to this heartbeat
for your own good;
and I hope that you will
one day
be able to thank me.
Leaving you bottled memories
for company,
and the scalps of people who
handed you poison
wrapped in your
own discarded
skin.
You reached for me
still darkness chained in your
judgments:
I accepted you
and allowed it
to taint me.
Those who cared for me
screamed,
biohazard.
So I whispered
back,
victim.
You lashed out,
wounded and afraid,
and I
waged war
257 days
and 258 nights.
As you struggle to the surface of
our bed drowning in
the blood of battle wounds—
remember,
as you see my corpse,
tha
Suspended in the
retrograded ocean of
spirits:
this auburn turns to
glass as soon as I try to
break the surface.
Unhalted overflowing blunt
facts
pouring from the
99 bottles of beer
(smashed) on the wall,
and still the force of
the collision between
my body and objects
is not enough to
defibrillate
my heartbeat.
My blacktop was
a colorblind father
who could not distinguish between
black and blue
on my own skin;
pumped-up kicks
to the abdomen
or ribs
as screams
for help
were muted
by theology.
Home has hit me
with the force of a thousand
tomorrows (for someone
fearing the future
while resenting the present
and wishing to change
and I shall call it such.
volcanoes are my device of
normality’s standards;
and I will
wait 132 days—
just to burn
(finally live).
I will brand my arms
with the shards of
sky falling down
and call you blind.
you can imprint yourself
on my cornea, (although
my eyes are already halfway
shut)
and call me
languid:
oh so unwell.
but;
friend, lover,
mother, father,
sister, brother,
son, daughter,
today is not the day
that I subdue
my flaws.
today is the day that I
crumble:
disintegrate and reform
from my dissipation.
turning my sins
to ashes and ashes
to lungs so I can
breathe despite being
entombed by eruptions
out of my cont
she wrapped her fingers
(creeping up slowly
like that weed
in your garden
that you wish would
die off
and never return.)
around his,
tightly.
(suffocating the
life out of him
as well,
and dragging
him down
into her depression.)
she promised
to never
let go,
(because then
who would keep her
from drowning.)
and she told him
teasingly,
that she would always
be his personal
problem.
(and she meant it like
a promise but really it
just sounded like
a curse.)
her words honestly
came across anything other than
playful.
(because her saying that,
said everything
she really didn’t want to
say.)
suis-moi en bas
en bas
en bas
permettre aux chaînes de rentrer dans ta peau
suis-moi dans l'obscurité
l'obscurité
l'obscurité
donne-moi ta main
suis-moi à travers les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes
les plantes grimpantes sont le sumac grimpant
boire mon poison,
mourir avec moi
suis-moi
suis-moi
suis-moi en bas
the devil's horns are digging into my flesh and they never
said it would hurt like this.
I was raised to be a martyr--but they never told me the meaning
of that word.
I was lucifer's child and that title was branded upon me with
spiteful eyes and cups of blood broken pieces of bodies I was
less.
corrupted.
flawed.
fire is what burns in hell and any fire that burnt in me must have
been brought along when I was taken
from there and I
know they were just afraid and that is why they suffocated me.
the closest I could get to fading without actually
disappearing
was becoming water but good girls are not water they are air not seen and not
mist from recently evaporated
suicidal waves
sank deep
into my pores
with muddied whispered promises of
nutriment,
quiet,
concealment.
oh did it nurture;
the poison ivy that possessed me.
oh did it quiet me,
my screams
for help.
oh did it conceal me,
from the joy
and honesty
I sought.
to such an aged
enemy,
I was an easy novel
to read,
with all of my weaknesses
bookmarked.
the vapor pushed me
not obtusely,
till I too
bowed my spine low
in defeat.
I reached&waspulled
further,
searching for
my home when
my body was comprised of
90% water and
90% of that was
liqu
the ghosts of sunken houses (1) by Phantomtigers, literature
Literature
the ghosts of sunken houses (1)
waves swell;
riding upon the crest
of silhouettes
from nameless
forgotten suicides.
the surges slam
their bodies against
unsympathetic cliffs,
releasing screams that dissipate into
cloudy sighs.
as the upsurge
release their salty grip
and fall back into the ocean limply;
their fog of
exhaled defeat
slowly rises.
creeping soundlessly along
the rocks till it bursts
out over the top and
free-falls down the mountain sides
to form a melancholic
hovering veil.
the vertebrae of newly christened
houses,
gradually curve&collapse into the
gentle pressure of the
damp&pleasuring
fog;
consuming the rot,
trapping it within every brick,
lusti
If you scoop out
everything between my
two planes of existence
and plant a venomous
garden instead,
with bitter ivy crawling throughout
this corporeal vessel:
don’t expect me to be
fine with that.
Pinning my voice
to the roof of my mouth
and my life
to my mind,
attempting to inundate me
with the world
in a bottle;
(restraining my arms to
a concept that
I will never achieve more
than is allowed)
I am not livestock
or a tool for breed
The Process of Becoming a Wallflower by Phantomtigers, literature
Literature
The Process of Becoming a Wallflower
i.
begin to wean yourself off of
responses
and social stimulation
until the frame of your social structure
becomes akin to
hummingbird bones.
ii.
your composure will stretch thin
across your cheeks
and the shadows sleeping
between your gaunt cheekbones
will begin to look like bruises—
rousing piteous looks from
acquaintances,
for all the wrong reasons.
iii.
allow said
hollow skeleton
to be picked up
&
The Process of Becoming a Wallflower by Phantomtigers, literature
Literature
The Process of Becoming a Wallflower
i.
begin to wean yourself off of
responses
and social stimulation
until the frame of your social structure
becomes akin to
hummingbird bones.
ii.
your composure will stretch thin
across your cheeks
and the shadows sleeping
between your gaunt cheekbones
will begin to look like bruises—
rousing piteous looks from
acquaintances,
for all the wrong reasons.
iii.
allow said
hollow skeleton
to be picked up
&