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I was 17 and
she pointed out that
I wasn't eating much
with an approving smile
and that made my
heart jump into my throat,

so I pulled it out
through my mouth
and presented my organs to her
with my full plate,
which she shakily accepted,
complimenting me
that I was almost
slender.

     I was 17 and
     I was finally acceptable enough
     for her to bear
     touching my body
     long enough
     for a hug.
           and as I held her bent and
           broken figure
           with collapsed conscience
           and vertebra,
                 I couldn’t say thank-you
                 since my throat was still raw
                 from stomach acid.
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Given 2014-07-31
skinny love by Phantomtigers is an excellent standalone of a solid, larger piece (linked in the description). The suggester says: "It's difficult to write about body image issues without angst and cliche, but I felt like this nailed it - I especially love the shock of the moment that begins stanza two and the resignation of the ending." ( Suggested by SilverInkblot and Featured by ShadowedAcolyte )
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EphemeralMonochrome Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't even know how many times I read this... Such bold, but perfect wording and imagery.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
aww, I'm honored! glad you enjoyed :heart:
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EphemeralMonochrome Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Of course!
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akrasiel Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014   General Artist
I don't know what to say about this. It's gorgeous but it hurts. I'll go with 'well done and the DD is well deserved.'
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
that's okay, at least I know it has impact :D
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akrasiel Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014   General Artist
That it does :nod:
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AutumnsTea Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Powerful, even without the rest of the poem, which I am going to go read as soon as I'm done writing this comment. This is a well deserved DD, congratulations!
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you so much :huggle: I hope you enjoy the full poem as well ~! Meow :3 
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AutumnsTea Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Both are really powerful poems and very well written, you deserve the praise! :) :heart:
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:blush: thanks !
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AutumnsTea Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome :D
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NemoX7 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2014   Writer
Congratulations on receiving a well-deserved DD. Bravo! As for the poem itself I can't say that I have experienced this myself, but I fully respected the sentiment behind the poem. It was a hauntingly powerful piece that moved me. Your word choice and imagery were top notch.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank-you ! I really appreciate you taking the time to leave feedback :D 
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DeeJay1993 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014
O_O 
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
O_O 
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DeeJay1993 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014
It`s just to much dark for me I don`t really like that eating disorder  
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Well, enjoying poetry is all a matter of taste :) actually having the disorder though, is not something that is easily controlled, or ever enjoyable. 
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DeeJay1993 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014
Yeah I know I read about it and saw photos and suffered nightmares after going through a prisoner war camp museum and seeing pictures of starved and very skinny people with dead eyes and I know they didn't have a chose they were prisoners but the people that starve them selves because other people judge them or they just feel fat or what ever bother the hell out of me    
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Hm well that's also your opinion, I'm not really going to try to change it, all I will ask is that you never say that to the face of someone who struggles with this disorder--whether or not it annoys you. Even if you don't understand how they can feel that way despite being normal, it is very real to them and if you tell them otherwise, it will have very negative impacts for them. I'm not saying this to bash you or anything, I just don't want you to hurt anyone without meaning to :huggle:
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DeeJay1993 Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014
I would never say anything hurtful to them I would try to help them I don`t know how but I will stay by their side and give them the best advice I can offer. I know it`s very real to them plus I didn't mean the people bother me it`s just seeing very very very skinny like all your bones showing and the very creepy dead eye thing and UGH this isn't helping. Sorry if I come across blah I just don`t know how to say what I want to say i`m not trying to be mean or hurtful or anything it`s just it just makes me uncomfortable but that won`t stop me from helping them get over what ever they are going through. I don`t think you are bashing me UGH thank you for the hug T_T Hug     
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Aug 5, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
awww, I'm sorry I misunderstood you Sweating a little... you sound like a very good friend ! if you just tell them that you want to help, and you try your best (which it definitely sounds like you do) then it's awesome Meow :3 ya can also ask other people who have struggled with this sort of thing and recovered, how you can help someone still having trouble with it (I, as well as some of the other people who commented on here, would always be open if ya wanna note them bout it I bet). Often people who are in the middle of it, don't even know how you can help them, or won't admit it xD anytime ~! 
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Giritchu Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That is lovely~
It reminds me of the song 'I'm Sorry, I'm Sorry'.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
you're my new favorite person for actually knowing that song omg :la: although, the lyrics are.. pretty disturbing.. so I'm not sure if I should be happy about the comparison or not LOL :D
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Giritchu Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yay, someone else who knows the song! Yeah, the lyrics are... Disturbing, to say the least.
((I didn't mean for the comparison to be bad))
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BEartistic121212 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
WELL.... if this song is like total death metal with aforementioned disturbing lyrics.... the poem makes sense.... But at first glance for ppl who dont know the song..... its just uh..... a sandwich made of ketchup and vinegar..... but......

ALL IN ALL UR JUST A-NOTHER BRICK IN THE WALL:happybounce: 
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I really like the song ! music wise, that is. have you heard iciko's cover? that girl can sing inhumanly high dayuuum.
((I didn't take it as bad, dw :D))
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Giritchu Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I like the song too, the music is very...*insert word other than awesome here*. The lyrics creep me out though.
I have heard Iciko's cover, she has a really high voice, yeah.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks~ !
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thankyee :)
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Krystalsapphire2000 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
Woah.....
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
whoaaa :la: thanks ! :D
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DarkFaerieNyroc13 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This just nails it. I love this.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you :hug: !
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DarkFaerieNyroc13 Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
You're welcome <3
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shadowkitty13 Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
HHHNG
OH GOD
MY TUMMY
IT ACTUALLY REALLY HURTS AFTER READING THIS
FEELINGS
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Edited Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Bunny Emoji-09 (Cry) [V1] I'm sorrrryyyyy
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shadowkitty13 Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
its okay
i forgive you
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TopHatBigPencil Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Whoa. That's powerful.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks :)
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MaskedArmada Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014
I can really relate to this... You did a fantastic job, huge congrats on the DD :hug:
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks :la:!!
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neurotype Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
The only thing I would do hear is unbold slender, I think having it on that line by itself at the end of that section is powerful enough. Otherwise, I love the way you lure the reader into understanding exactly your feelings.
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thanks for reading it and taking the time to leave some feedback, I'm a bit of a sucker for throwing some visual stuff in my poetry even if it might have the same impact normally. I guess it's just my redundant style :) I'm glad my poem was able to communicate those feelings ! 
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Ari-Heart-Matsuri Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Beautiful! Congrats on the DD, it's well deserved!
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Phantomtigers Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
thank you very much !
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Ari-Heart-Matsuri Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:D You're welcome! :D
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JakFudo Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I do not understand what this poem is saying. Is it about a friend that was unaccepting of you being over weight? 
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